Thursday, March 13, 2008

d day of immense torture

7 months n its all gone...
me living d singleton life now again..
yea..juz broke up with my ex..haiz..
y does it hurt so much?
y does d tears haf to fall?
y?
yyyyyyy?????????????????
todays our 7th anniversary n yet it is today we broke up
dis mrning he alredi told me he had a nitemare we were going to break up n now its done...
my heart is juz scattered into pieces i blive no one can patch up again..
but im not going to do anything stupid like d time b4 pmr..instead i'll try to be brave instead
altho d feeling is uncontrollable..
sometimes i tink i really have to live my life..cant keep holding on to something that keeps tearing me inside n ripping my heart into pieces..is this what u wud call love?when love suppose to give u a sense of security n keep n safe n warm?or am i the one just having the worst luck in love that all i deserve is a bleeding heart??maybe just maybe in the far far future god might bless me with someone that truly cares n loves me for hu i am n not cause im not perfect.
torture..

4 comments:

  1. be tough rachel. anything must remember find me k? u noe im ur bestie and i will help u if i can okay? cheer up yea

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  2. and u still got me too..although i am in penang...sad..sometimes feel kinda left out by u all..but nvm..i still love u all so so much..muackzzz...gambateh..u can find another betta 1..trust me okay??

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  3. come on... ^_^
    life moves on
    i am sure you would get a better bf in the future tooo (:
    smilez and cheers

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  4. be tough gal!! :D support u always~

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