Life juz come and go without anyone's knowledge.....

true to what i said in my blog's tittle...

Life juz come and go....

Without ANYONE's knowledge...

i cudnt believe it...

my grandmmother juz passed away on 19th of JULY 2007..

all of us couldnt believe it

last sunday was her 80th burfday

but she was too sick 4 us to celebrate it on dat day

so we postponed it to this sunday....

when sudenly without anyone's knowledge...

she passed away in her sleep yesterday b4 we could celebrate it 4 her...

dad was rili sad as he loved grandma alot n was close to her...

yesterday after helping a while with the funeral parlour

like setting up the stuff i gess he cudnt stand it..

he went to the room n started reading a book

i knew he didnt want to cry or anything

so to hide it he juz read dis book

my heart ached juz seeing him do dat...

d funeral parlour was covering my grandma's house with white cloths

and preparing all the stuff

i went with my mum n sis upstairs to see grandma 1 last time...

we saw my auntie n uncle praying n crying upstairs..

den late at night a group of monks came over

n started praying 4 her...

me,my mum n my sis went back to get sum sleep as today we had to cm bek in d morning....

dad din cm bek untill late at nite n as early as 6 sth he was alredi back at grandma's hse

poor dad when i saw him juz now i saw him resting in d room at grandma's hse

den he asked me n jie to go see grandma in the coffin

grandma had been made up and juz layed in the coffin so peacefully....

i pray dat grandma will rest in peace

in the name of jesus i pray amen...

den me n my cuzin sat n burned money n things to my grandma to the other world.

according to my cuzin the fire muz go on burning so dat grandma can safely recieve the things later..

nw im back at hme bt later i haf to be back at grandma's hse

tmr mum says i haf to wear this blue clothes to pray since im d granddaughter..

den tonite there vl be dis ritual where the monks will come again...

we had to circle around my grandma's coffin again

the next day was the worst....

early in the morning all of us were dere at the hse..

preparing 4 the funeral ceremony

den the monks came again at around 8sth

dey had all of us meaning the family sit down

n hear dem chant n pray again

den all of us had to knee down before my grandma's coffin

n den d funeral parlour started to hammer the coffin sealing it..

dat was d saddest moment as evry1 started crying

i cud see dadi n uncle crying untill dey're whole shirt was soaked

me n my cousins was told not to look as dey hammered d coffin

i cudnt help it n juz looked

n saw my one of my uncle doing this hand rituals prayer

i knew he was trying nt to cry n was rili upset n was so choked up so he was doing those hand rituals tingy....

den dey loaded her coffin into the hears

all of us walked behind it until d end of taman midah dere

d whole back of the car was wet as all my uncles n dad were pushing it 4rm behind n crying

my auntie was also crying but luckily 4 my baby cousin hu rili brighten evry1's mood a lil bitla

he wud exclaim at evry car or shout TRUCK!RED!

lolx...haiz at least he made my auntie smile a bit

den we board dis bus to take us to the cemetry while the coffin-car drove infront

went we arrived dere we had to go thru d cremating process

wich is burning my grandma's body in the coffin in this place until left her bones n ashes....

d minute we got down little baby cousin isaac started running here n dere so hapily..oh well cant blame d little fellow...he's too young to noe dat his great grand ma juz passed away..haiz

den d funeral parlour loaded my grandma's coffin into the fire place

with a great THUD!n den a huge sound of burning gas n fire started up

i cudnt blive it dat dey juz burned her like dat..

my eyes started tearing up again n i juz stared shocked...@.@

after dat my mami took me n said it was time to go

the day after my dad n uncle were goin to collect the bones n ashes to burry

n grandma is gone juz like dat....

wen we went bek to d hse d monks had to 'clean' d hse 1st

n we had to wash our hands in holy water n step over a fire...

aizz instead of grandma's grand 80th burfday dis sunday it will be a funeral...

haiz

i rili cant blive it dat grandma isnt here anymore

n i rili rili pray dat she is in peace in the other world

god bless her n may she rest in peace...

on monday nite at around 3am i woke up

i dono y i felt as if i cudnt breathe

den wen i went to the toilet i ended up puking all over d floor

BLEARGHHHHHHHH

aihz i dono wat happen to me

den d next few days i was as sick as a dog

m still now....

i even feel naueaus at a plate of nasi lemak heaven's sake!

haf to take so much of medicine sumore

hmph

at least wen i went bek to sku today i had warm greetings

awwwwww

my beloved besties said dey missed me alot

me miss u guys too!!!!!

n today kamkooi told me she was sorri over grandma's death

i din noe how to answer so i juz kept quiet...

if oni we were like last time b4 SUMBODY entered our lives...

another thing me n my 'lou gong zai' break up jor...

now he's my ex jor..haiz

n yet i dunwan to tink of it anymore as im having my trials very soon

but i hope we r frens 4eva...

tata ^^V