Vday turn Dday

hey..

okay no i did not spend the whole valentines sobbing like a burst dam over a guy as what most of u including my eng teacher in tution thinks..

nah..

i dont cry for guys anymore cause i figured it aint worth it

though i did like what my cute bio teacher said..

GOD made a woman out of a man's ribs so a man's ribs is actually incomplete on one side n so a guy must find a gurl who has the exact rib from him to ensure both couples stay happily forever..

cool huh?
though it did make me ponder on how if my perfect guy lives like in the amazon?

giant anaconda wrestling hulk of a guy swinging from trees..uh huh..fetching.very.NOT.

but i aint jokin any further,

sometimes i just cant take it anymore like that day..

over a simple question with so many hidden meanings n i burst down into tears.

'aren't u angry at ur father?'

i dont know who to believe..

n that was it.

i just dont get why jies spm exam was so much more important than mine..

when she was having her exams u called dad back so jie could concentrate n not worrying bout any other family matters..ever thought bout me???

u lay the pressure on me because jie always rebel against u..

dont u know im having my exam this year too?

n one 2 days after valentines too..

u expect me to do well but whenever i try to study u never stop with dad..

over that question n answer u barged in a few times to tell me how dumb i was if i saw dad as an angel..i NEVER said that.n i NEVER said who i supported in this matter..

n u shud noe im on ur side on how i never rebelled to let u pour out whatever pains u in ur heart..

well,im not going to blame anyone.but if ur expecting great results from me this time dont..

days have i spent just weeping n u still stayed mad at me...but i will keep to my word nevertheless to make u proud in my 2nd intervensi n diagnostik exam for SPM..

if ur reading this...

know that i have feelings too..know that i may appear tough,laughing loudly on the outside but deep inside im troubled by our family matters too..know that im just as weak n the countless nights ive spent sobbing into the pillow just makes u wonder exactly how badly im affected by it all..but always noe that im on ur side never to leave u alone to face it all n that i love u just as much as u love n care for me...

thanks to bear n nerdie for the roses..sweet of ya to think of me during vday..n thanks all of ya for ur wishes especially lou tou,chin yew...n thanks to chin yew for being there for me during the nights to give me study tips n to cheer me up when i was down..love ya all..

*will upload pics when free..after next week sin la ya..taa!